Out Of The Wilderness

A fool has no delight in understanding, But in expressing his own heart. Proverbs 18:2 As I go through Proverbs, one of the biggest things that has hit me is how often I am the fool. I think that as a Christian, or as a person, I would like to think that I am the wise man ( woman ) that is paired in contrast. But really so very often I am the fool. And this verse just hit me. Hard. Looking at conflict, which is at times inevitable. What do I seek to do? I can say that looking back a lot of the time I have sought to express my opinion. My heart. How it is that the situation has affected me, how it is that I feel. What I think should have been done, or should be done, or how I think it was done wrong. I have started to learn, what it means to understand. Considering team Costa Rica is a two person team conflict at times feels awkward. Now praise the Lord He has faithfully been teaching both of us how conflict is good, and we can use disagreements to glorify God in the way we d

Do not let your heart envy sinners, But be zealous for the fear of the LORD all the day; Proverbs 23:17 I would be graduating this year. I would be home spending the summer with friends and family going off to college this August and striving for the American dream. That’s what my life would most likely look like if I had continued on without God. And as graduation time came and went and I saw all the pictures and I hear all about the plans I found my self fearing that. Just feeling almost cheated. Like, that was supposed to be me. I should’ve been the one in the cap and gown, saying the speech, getting the scholarship. Then I looked at what I have. I have a relationship with God. Which in the end is the only thing that matters. I get to be a part of a great ministry and love kids as I serve where He has called me to. I I get to share His love and His gospel with people who have no hope. So much doesn’t looks the way I thought, but I have so much more than I ever thought I woul

For You, O God, have tested us; You have refined us as silver is refined. You brought us into the net; You hace laid affliction on our backs. You have caused men to ride over our heads; We went through fire and through water; But You brought us out to rich fulfillment. Psalm 66:10-12 God loves me. That is something I know I can’t deny, especially when everything seems to be going my way and working out just as I want it to. Then times get hard. I can feel the affliction, struggle, I can feel that life is difficult and I’m in the middle of the fire. That it doesn’t feel “good”. And in those moments is when I usually find myself doubting Gods love and goodness. Because how could I possibly be in such a state yet loved. And for the longest time I couldn’t reconcile the two. Yet as time goes on, and I go deeper in my relationship with Him. I realize His goodness and love for me don’t change just because my circumstances or comforts change. Because He in all His love for me knows I ca